YINGSI; Haha yes I have definitely a lot to tell you! When are you free again huh? I can meet you up after school on weekdays probably, I end school pretty early. Text me again alright? Take care unglam! :D
PAM; I didn't spam photos suddenly :P I always like to spam photos all along, didn't you realise? Haha. Many people like that shot too, because it is colourful and bursting with vibrancy! Heh.
WEIEN; Somehow, I just keep thinking that it is rare that you tag people, and I feel honoured that you tagged me. How are you coping with everything? Talk to me if you see me online. Heh, heard you are not going for Cadet Officer Course. The photos are just a 'smokescreen' to my depressing posts and writeup. Haha x:
SPEND ALL YOUR TIME WAITING, FOR THAT SECOND CHANCE, FOR A BREAK THAT WOULD BE OKAY. THERE'S ALWAYS ONE REASON, TO FEEL NOT GOOD ENOUGH, AND IT'S HARD AT THE END OF THE DAY. I NEED SOME DISTRACTION, OH BEAUTIFUL RELEASE, MEMORY SEEPS FROM MY VEINS. LET ME BE EMPTY, AND WEIGHTLESS AND MAYBE, I'LL FIND SOME PEACE TONIGHT.
I've settled my medical appointments, in some way. They kinda bothered me quite a bit. It was very troublesome I must say. I need to fax letter in from school to CMPB together with my examinations timetable. In the end, I realised actually there is no need to. I just have to call this person called Miss Jenny from CMPB at her personal line. I managed to change my appointment with the Medical Officer from 9 October to next Friday. Then my cardiac checkup at CGH is changed from 16 September to 24 August. Fortunately there is someone who cancelled his/her appointment, otherwise, I will be scheduled way after September and that also meant that my enlistment will most likely be in April and that sucks totally! What if my heart really has problem? I got this bad feeling, since heart problems seem to be something that run along my maternal family line. Who cares anyway?
After all the postponement and discussion, I've finally got to meet up with Melly and Hui Min on Wednesday after school. They changed a lot in my opinion, but I guess I changed a lot too. I had a great time with them lunching at Aston's as well as singing at Teo Heng Family KTV! Thanks for everything and sorry for being late that day! A pity that we didn't manage to catch up a lot - it was more of crapping, singing and laughing I guess. Never mind, let's meet up soon again at some nice, quiet dining place that we can catch up with each other properly alright? (:
I was stupid to use a remote control, not knowing that the machine now at Teo Heng is touch screen! Who wants to join me the next time? Haha.
I like this shot actually, but a pity, my face is out of frame!
Okay, I think I gave the wrong expression x:
Hui Min's fringe! Hahaha!
PAM; I didn't spam photos suddenly :P I always like to spam photos all along, didn't you realise? Haha. Many people like that shot too, because it is colourful and bursting with vibrancy! Heh.
WEIEN; Somehow, I just keep thinking that it is rare that you tag people, and I feel honoured that you tagged me. How are you coping with everything? Talk to me if you see me online. Heh, heard you are not going for Cadet Officer Course. The photos are just a 'smokescreen' to my depressing posts and writeup. Haha x:
SPEND ALL YOUR TIME WAITING, FOR THAT SECOND CHANCE, FOR A BREAK THAT WOULD BE OKAY. THERE'S ALWAYS ONE REASON, TO FEEL NOT GOOD ENOUGH, AND IT'S HARD AT THE END OF THE DAY. I NEED SOME DISTRACTION, OH BEAUTIFUL RELEASE, MEMORY SEEPS FROM MY VEINS. LET ME BE EMPTY, AND WEIGHTLESS AND MAYBE, I'LL FIND SOME PEACE TONIGHT.
I've settled my medical appointments, in some way. They kinda bothered me quite a bit. It was very troublesome I must say. I need to fax letter in from school to CMPB together with my examinations timetable. In the end, I realised actually there is no need to. I just have to call this person called Miss Jenny from CMPB at her personal line. I managed to change my appointment with the Medical Officer from 9 October to next Friday. Then my cardiac checkup at CGH is changed from 16 September to 24 August. Fortunately there is someone who cancelled his/her appointment, otherwise, I will be scheduled way after September and that also meant that my enlistment will most likely be in April and that sucks totally! What if my heart really has problem? I got this bad feeling, since heart problems seem to be something that run along my maternal family line. Who cares anyway?
After all the postponement and discussion, I've finally got to meet up with Melly and Hui Min on Wednesday after school. They changed a lot in my opinion, but I guess I changed a lot too. I had a great time with them lunching at Aston's as well as singing at Teo Heng Family KTV! Thanks for everything and sorry for being late that day! A pity that we didn't manage to catch up a lot - it was more of crapping, singing and laughing I guess. Never mind, let's meet up soon again at some nice, quiet dining place that we can catch up with each other properly alright? (:
I was stupid to use a remote control, not knowing that the machine now at Teo Heng is touch screen! Who wants to join me the next time? Haha.
I like this shot actually, but a pity, my face is out of frame!
Okay, I think I gave the wrong expression x:
Hui Min's fringe! Hahaha!
Friday was quite a sucky day for me, or rather, a very lousy day. The Biology scripts are returned to us, and I was jumping for joy in school when I knew I got 45.6 for the paper. After the 5% moderation, I've got 50.6 and that's still an E, no difference. Who knows that actually I'm deeply disappointed in my results for the whole CT2? Alright, putting the procrastination aside, I think I shouldn't be getting these results. I thought the Es will be an alarm or a warning sign to wake me up, move on and be motivated, but it didn't. I got demoralised instead, and i just could not bring myself to study, no matter how much I want to and yearn for good results. Who landed me in all this? Who made me lose my motivation? I should probably blame no one I guess, but shouldn't someone be in some way, partially responsible for it as well? However, considering what Xin Hui and Melly have said, that person didn't force me to become like that, it's my own mindset and my own weakness that made me this way. Yeah, probably.
After school, I went back to AHS and meet up with Mr Yeow. While waiting for him, I handed the officers' file over to Lewis, and passed all the past SPDS Drills Sequences to the PDIs. Mr Yeow brought me to the Staff Room after that to discuss about the music for the flag party then helped out with the flag party training. A pity that the whole parade had to be called off because of H1N1 and hence, lack of time for rehearsals. The Flag Party will be led by a sword bearer from NCC, the State Flag will be carried by Scouts and School Flag by Girls' Brigade. NPCC, SJAB, Girl Guides and Boys' Brigade will form the Flag Party Guard-of-Honour. They will then slow-march into the hall. It's kinda grand actually, if they do it properly and if Concert Band plays properly too. Despite saying all these, I'm sure the whole thing will still be carried out smoothly, under the great guidance of Mr Yeow. He is so experienced in doing all these already, it's his Nth year doing it. I don't even know how many years!
I thought I could stop myself from talking to him, but the whole atmosphere was fake. I told myself that I will let go, but yet, I am still so affected by it. That's bad. real bad. For a moment, I was so angry looking at his attitude. While yet another moment, I stopped myself from feeling that way because I don't want to be angry at him. What an irony, it's probably a love-hate issue that cannot be resolved. It was just a mixture of feelings, something that made me felt uneasy throughout my stay there. It sucks to the core. There's so much I want to say but I don't feel like to, since he doesn't care anymore, at all. Alright, I don't know what am I talking about. It doesn't make sense. I'll find some peace tonight, I need peace. I will get over it, I will let it go. I can, I will and I must.
"In the arms of an angel, fly away from here..."
'Angel' - Westlife
Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
After school, I went back to AHS and meet up with Mr Yeow. While waiting for him, I handed the officers' file over to Lewis, and passed all the past SPDS Drills Sequences to the PDIs. Mr Yeow brought me to the Staff Room after that to discuss about the music for the flag party then helped out with the flag party training. A pity that the whole parade had to be called off because of H1N1 and hence, lack of time for rehearsals. The Flag Party will be led by a sword bearer from NCC, the State Flag will be carried by Scouts and School Flag by Girls' Brigade. NPCC, SJAB, Girl Guides and Boys' Brigade will form the Flag Party Guard-of-Honour. They will then slow-march into the hall. It's kinda grand actually, if they do it properly and if Concert Band plays properly too. Despite saying all these, I'm sure the whole thing will still be carried out smoothly, under the great guidance of Mr Yeow. He is so experienced in doing all these already, it's his Nth year doing it. I don't even know how many years!
I thought I could stop myself from talking to him, but the whole atmosphere was fake. I told myself that I will let go, but yet, I am still so affected by it. That's bad. real bad. For a moment, I was so angry looking at his attitude. While yet another moment, I stopped myself from feeling that way because I don't want to be angry at him. What an irony, it's probably a love-hate issue that cannot be resolved. It was just a mixture of feelings, something that made me felt uneasy throughout my stay there. It sucks to the core. There's so much I want to say but I don't feel like to, since he doesn't care anymore, at all. Alright, I don't know what am I talking about. It doesn't make sense. I'll find some peace tonight, I need peace. I will get over it, I will let it go. I can, I will and I must.
"In the arms of an angel, fly away from here..."
'Angel' - Westlife
Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here